I’m happy to report that my visit to the hospital on Wednesday did not bring me bad news. I was told that radiotherapy can continue to affect the treated area for some considerable time. My reaction is not common, but thankfully it looks as if it’s not cancer-related. Most of me feels very reassured by this. I can finally relax knowing I don’t have to undergo any more treatment. Yet there is still an anxiety inside me which persists. Somehow I just can’t accept that the cancer has gone, or that it won’t return. I wonder if there’ll ever be a day when I feel totally free from cancer.